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Love Letter #31 : Afraid

Wednesday, December 24, 2014
Dear You,

It's feels like so long time ago I hadn't these things going on me.
It keeps come and go as always. My heart still beating fast when the time come.
For more than a decade, it's always been you.

I really not sure how i describe you into words. Those words are letters, that combine and got some meaning of it. Mine are feelings than can describe to a lot more than just some words nor sentences.

Seeing you every time is a blessing that God give it to me and also something that can hurt me.
How you means so much to me, it's makes me afraid sometimes that our time would come to the end.
I really afraid that I just can't let you go. Instead of say anything that revealing this up, I just keep staring at you, and enjoy every single second your presence are. I'm just so afraid that I could lose you, lose us, lose whatever we had these times.

That much afraid? Hell yeah!

I don't know since when this thing growing in me, but sooner or later that truth day will come, and i would say whatever my heart should say earlier.

I don't know how you feeling about me. All I hear from you was, your dream girl doesn't sounds like me, at all. That's makes me scare even more.

Sometimes, all we need to do for someone we love is supporting him/her. Because, our opinion based on our heart saying and it might be not the best thing for them. Supporting (within reason) is the way to keep them, stay.

Dear, I am afraid to lose you, remember how important your presence are to me. Could you do one favor to me? If something goes wrong, please don't let me stand alone? Or don't go without saying goodbye? I know you might be gonna hate me, because you think i'm lying, but honestly i don't. This is just my way to keep you stay, right here, beside me. It's hurt to listen about your dream girl someday in your dream house, but at least i can see you smile and hear you laugh.

Sometimes, when we love someone, just to hear their laugh and see their bright smile, although our feeling might just like clapping with one hand, it feels nice. It's doesn't matter, as long as we eyes to eyes, as a friends. Hang in there, buddy, someday if the time has come, i'd come up to you. I hope not in the wrong situation.

Be there for me, buddy..
Sincerely,

Yours

Mariah Carey - We Belong Together

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Mariah Carey - We Belong Together

(Ooh, ooh, sweet love, yeah)
I didn't mean it when I said I didn't love you so
I should've held on tight, I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing, I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself

I could not fathom I would ever be without your love
Never imagined I'd be sitting here beside myself
'Cause I didn't know you, 'cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I've never fail

The feeling that I'm feeling now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips 'cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give to have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby
(We belong together)

When you left I lost a part of me (Together)
It's still so hard to believe
(Come back, come back)
Come back baby, please
(Come back, come back)
'Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on when times get rough (Ooooooh yeah)
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone till the sun comes up (Oooooh yeah)
Who's gonna take your place, there ain't nobody better (Oooooooh yeah)
Oh, baby baby, we belong together

I can't sleep at night when you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio singing to me:
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute this is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station so I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break and then I hear Babyface:
"I only think of you", and it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together but I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside
I need you, need you back in my life, baby
(We belong together)

When you left I lost a part of me (Together)
It's still so hard to believe
(Come back, come back)
Come back baby, please
(Come back, come back)
'Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on when times get rough (Ooooooh yeah)
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone till the sun comes up (Oooooh yeah)
Who's gonna take your place, there ain't nobody better (Oooooooh yeah)
Oh, baby baby, we belong together baby! (We belong together)

When you left I lost a part of me (Together)
(Oooooooh yeah)
It's still so hard to believe
(Come back, come back)
Come back baby, please (Oooooooh yeah)
(Come back, come back)
'Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on when times get rough (Ooooooh yeah)
Who's gonna talk to me till the sun comes up (Ooooooh yeah)
Who's gonna take your place, there ain't nobody better (Oooooooh yeah)
Oh, baby baby, we belong together!
Ooooooh yeah
Ooooooh yeah
Ooooooh yeah
We belong together

Taylor Swift - Blank Space


Taylor Swift - Blank Space 

Nice to meet you, where you been?
I could show you incredible things
Magic, madness, heaven sin
Saw you there and I thought
Oh my God, look at that face
You look like my next mistake
Love's a game, want to play?

New money, suit and tie
I can read you like a magazine
Ain't it funny, rumors, lie
And I know you heard about me
So hey, let's be friends
I'm dying to see how this one ends
Grab your passport and my hand
I can make the bad guys good for a weekend

So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game

'Cause we're young and we're reckless
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
But I've got a blank space baby
And I'll write your name

Cherry lips, crystal skies
I could show you incredible things
Stolen kisses, pretty lies
You're the king baby I'm your Queen
Find out what you want
Be that girl for a month
Wait the worst is yet to come, oh no

Screaming, crying, perfect storm
I can make all the tables turn
Rose gardens filled with thorns
Keep you second guessing like
"Oh my God, who is she?"
I get drunk on jealousy
But you'll come back each time you leave
'Cause darling I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream

So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game

'Cause we're young and we're reckless
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane (Insane)
But I've got a blank space baby
And I'll write your name

Boys only want love if it's torture
Don't say I didn't say I didn't warn ya
Boys only want love if it's torture
Don't say I didn't say I didn't warn ya

So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
'Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game

'Cause we're young and we're reckless
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They'll tell you I'm insane
But I've got a blank space baby
And I'll write your name

Np : *this copy i get from somewhere else

Tips & Tricks Playing Circle

Thursday, October 30, 2014
Only few games that made me almost throw my phone away while playing. One of them was flappy bird. I knew you play it at least once, and still remember how stressful play that game? How you easily pissed off to that stupid bird that easily dead once he got hit by the wall? 

Nah, for those who misses game look a like and have same level of stress, you should try this one. Called Cirlce. Just Circle. It's available on IOS (perhaps on Android as well. But since I dont use Android, please check it out for me, will ya?) 
So, while I playing it, I've got an idea, why I'm not just writing it down tips & trick while play Circle... Yes, it might sounds silly after all, but that's what game is about, to challenge you and somehow to makes you looks silly and stupid (until you get mad and wanna throw your beloved brand new iPhone or iPad or ). 
So here we come : 


Please DO this! : 
a. Hold and later crunch as much paper/plastic/animal stuff/doll you can get when you get lose. Trust me, this would much better than throwing it out your gadget. At least you wont cry later.
b. You better be have place that comfortable enough for you to sit on before you start it. and, hug a pillow please. this will help you to lower down your voice when you scream later (trust me, in some point you will scream louder)
c. Please learn how to control you beat while breathing, or breathing smoothly.
d. Try not blinking too often, or better be, do not blinking at all.

Please, please i beg you, DO NOT DO THIS :
a. DO NOT play with anything sharp around you. I don't want to heard anyone get hurt or do something stupid after playing this game
b. DO NOT play while your other hand hold something heavy or things like electronics. Trust me, you will regret it later
c. DO NOT think of anything. Not even your ups and down complicated relationship with your bf, gf or anyone. You know the line really gonna pissed you off, because all you have to do just get through it and not touch it, at all.
d. DO NOT get too excited when your score is getting high, it would ruin your focus and your breathing at some point.
e. DO NOT throw your gadget when your circle accidentally touch the line (and your score are 100 something). Just don't. Please wrap your hand and your gadget with sticky tape instead.

If you still lose, I beg you, please, dont kill someone... It's just a game anyway, not a battle between life and death. Just chill...

The Rain - Terlatih Patah Hati


Akhir-akhir ini, saya mulai kerajingan nulis lagi. Iya, balik ke rutinitas nulis lagi. Blog - novel - blog - novel. Masih mencoba untuk nulis rutin setiap hari, paling tidak sejam,
Anyway, di kantor nih beberapa hari lalu salah satu orang kantor pasang lagu yang liriknya catchy banget. Kalau penasara, nih video klipnya dari youtube plus liriknya di bawah... Seru banget buat di nyanyiin bareng sama sahabat, sebagai titik balik langkah move on kalian (buat yang habis patah hati..)

 

Aku sudah mulai lupa
Saat pertama rasakan lara
Oleh harapan yang pupus
Hingga hati cedera serius

Terima kasih kalian
Barisan para mantan
Dan semua yang pergi
Tanpa sempat aku miliki
Album indexliriklagu.info
Tak satupun yang aku sesali
Hanya membuatku semakin terlatih

Begini rasanya terlatih patah hati
Hadapi getirnya terlatih disakiti
Bertepuk sebelah tangan (sudah biasa)
Ditinggal tanpa alasan (sudah biasa)
Penuh luka itu pasti tapi aku tetap bernyanyi

Lama tak ku dengar tentangnya
Yang paling dalam tancapkan luka
Satu hal yang aku tahu
Terkadang dia juga rindu

Terima kasih kalian
Barisan para mantan
Dan semua yang pergi
Tanpa sempat aku miliki

Tak satupun yang aku sesali
Hanya membuatku semakin terlatih

Begini rasanya terlatih patah hati
Hadapi getirnya terlatih disakiti
Bertepuk sebelah tangan (sudah biasa)
Ditinggal tanpa alasan (sudah biasa)
Penuh luka itu pasti tapi aku tetap bernyanyi

Begini rasanya terlatih patah hati
Hadapi getirnya terlatih disakiti
Bertepuk sebelah tangan (sudah biasa)
Ditinggal tanpa alasan (sudah biasa)
Penuh luka itu pasti tapi aku tetap bernyanyi

10 Simple ways to Cheer Up Yourself

Monday, October 27, 2014
Some people said, when Monday is arrive and weekend left us behind, the mood possibly turn down. But there are so many ways to cheer up yourself again, so you can get through new day with new smile. So, I listed down 10 Simple ways to Cheer Up Yourself, when your mood suddenly turn off. I hope these would help you in every way..

1. Meet Up your best friend or your lover
Maybe you are not a person that have a bunch of people to be with you all the time. But I'm pretty sure you have at least one particular person that can always cheer you up. When you with him/her, that moment would booster your mood. Go call them, arrange a meet up. Have good and quality time together. Makes sure he/she makes you laugh.

2. Play with your pet
If you have pet, could be cat or dog (or some other beautiful creatures), play with them. I don't know how this works, but playing with them always makes mood turn okay again. I don't have dog (although i always wanted one), but I heard they could give you that looks like they understand your feeling. Cat doesn't do the same, but playing or having them around you, i bet it would makes you feel better too. If you don't have any pet at home, just go to pet store and play with them there. Sometimes, I visit pet store just too play shake hands with dog or rub their belly. It's fun, and make up my mood as well.

3. Do a project and get creative
This would help you if you are a creative person. If not, don't worry, I still have 7 things to do right below this point. But if you are a creative person, having a project, either it's cooking, writing, painting or sewing, or other creative things, would help you feel better. Mostly it will effect your pride. You know how its important to feel good about yourself first, then the mood automatically will go up and higher. Then, what are you waiting for, go get your self a creative project on your own. Doesn't have to be expensive, it could be just a simple experiment on your cooking, or it could be a sketch of your design for imaginary boutique line. Or anything. Find your inspiration at Pinterest, and go get creative!

4. Do make up and dress up like you want to go for a date
This actually could work. You know those feeling when you are going for a date with your lover or your special person? Nah, how about you try to have that make up on you, and that new dress you bought last week for a date? Have it and wear it for a day. Let's see how it turns out.
When i go to work, i don't wear make up that much. Only simple basic make up. Like lip balm and blush on. but when I woke up in the morning, and i feel my mood just drop, I put make up on my face, and smile. It's makes me feel better. You should try!

5. Take a hot shower or have a quality time on your bath up
Many people would do this. They say it's me time when they would drop out any tired and exhausted feeling. Well, since I don't have bath up on my bathroom, all i can do is actually let waters swipe away my problem through showers. Or if you wanna try, get wet and dancing in the rain. Well, somehow it help, then you will get flu and cold the day after.


6. Write something 
Write something on your diary, or journal, or blog. Or if you don't have those, just write something on your note. It doesn't have to be good. Well, you can judge on your own write. Writing will help you let it out your bad feeling. It definitely makes you better. Or maybe it will help you find your secret skills, and write a story someday, based on your notes? Who knows! So, grab your paper and pen, and go write something!

7. Buy flowers 
Do not wait someone to buy you flowers, just buy yourself a bouquet. Usually i bought myself a bouquet of Tuberose flowers on weekend, so when I woke up, there will be a good smell all over my room. In Indonesia, this flowers known used for a wedding decoration, as well for cemetery. A bit creepy to put it in bed room, but I just love the smell. You can buy any flowers you want, such as Jasmine, Casablanca or Lilly that have good smell. Or perhaps you like Rose, although it doesn't have smell, it would looks good as a decoration on your desk.

8. Have Me-time and pamper yourself 
Go out, have good lunch or dinner, buy yourself new pair of shoes, go to beauty salon, and go have fun. Well, if payday still far away and you run out of cash, then have spa day at home. Search how to do a spa day. Good food, good book, and good sleep, would makes good time and good mood will come again soon.

9. Let it Out and Scream Loud
Do this on your roof top your apartment or your house or your office building, but be careful up there. Don't makes anyone worried you gonna fall of. Let it out whatever screw your mind, scream it out loud. It would be good idea if you do it on a bridge or while you driving (I have seen it on movie, it looks good. I wanna try it someday, I hope my partner don't mind. It means I get crazy only. LOL!)

10. Get yourself a Karaoke day
 Who doesn't love to sing? I bet everyone does love to sing. And no one can judge you like if you try an audition for American Idol or something. Then, get yourself a karaoke day! Sing lots of favorite song. If you don't like to be alone, then ask your friends to come along. It would make your day bright again.. I have my own karaoke time every time i drive. It's fun, although sometimes other drivers look at me like I crazy or something, but who cares?! My car, my rules. I can dance and sing at the same time and I don't care what other people think. You can do the same. Don't forget, sing it out loud!

Feeling Good about Yourself

Sunday, October 26, 2014
Wow!
Its been long time since last time i posted something for my own blog. I mean, a real post, not just some lyrics post. But anyway, how do you do so far? I hope everything goin well.

I don't know where to start. I've been pretty busy myself lately, for work. I have a job, good one, still in starting level, but i liking it. It's a dynamic world, lot's of thing going on and I'm still trying to makes everything works out. That's my plan for now.

But there's something bothers me. Like everybody else, a job should makes you feel good about yourself. Things that makes you feel you earn something great. It could be a rewards, an awards or just a simple compliment that gave you feeling like, "Wow you really good at this. You should stay and work some more." Lately, i just don't feel that way about myself.

But that feeling comes when weekend's around and i have 2 days to makes my feeling good again and hopefully it will help me go through the weekdays. Somehow, I feel this isn't right, this is wrong feeling, and i shouldn't feel like this way, but it happens!

Day by day, a month and two passed, it didn't get any better. At one point i just want to give up, and just runaway. Far far away from all of this. But again, i cant just do that. A small part of me, tell that i should finish what i started, at least for some time. I should get up and face the problems in front of me. And i know what is the problem. My idealistic heart and mind. These both things (mind and heart) wanted me to do something else. Something that I even never learn it before on school ground. Something that i feel just fall of from the sky and hit my head. Something that i really wanted to do so freaking bad and makes me feels great about myself. This thing makes me crazy and messed my mind because I kept pending it. Something that most of people say i should do earlier or now.

Maybe i just cant do it now, or this year. But hopefully if i can make it until next year, and i'll try to makes my dream comes true. Next year baby, it will be pretty excited year for me and myself. Maybe i care about having lots of money on my pocket, but i care about my heart too. I dont want feeling shit about myself too long.. I think everybody would wanted the same way. Have a great feeling about their self. Work their ass off, and can earn so much from it. That want i wanted too.

2 in 1 Skirt Dress
Maybe next year could give me so much thing, more than this year. Next year i want to start over, with career I choose for myself, making things i love the most, give it or selling it and makes people happy with my things. It would feel million times much better. I hope so.

But for now, I still get some things that makes me feel good about myself. Almost every weekend, i could meet my favorite person, have some quality times with him. I start to actually write again, and work on my writing project. I do different projects every weekend that makes me feel soo excited!
Reversible Storage

I hope next year i could do it anytime, and maybe makes money from it. How cool is that! Maybe it isn't perfect, and i still need time to make it better, but these projects is my world. I feel i belong here. My passion is this. Making things. Be a craftwomen.

For whoever out there, who have the same feeling like me, you should know that you aren't alone. It takes time to get to your passion, don't worry you will get there eventually. DO things that makes you happy the most, there are the heaven of your world. I hope you all get your own happiness and heaven, anytime soon. I hope I could get my own sooner.

Bang Bang Lyrics by Jessie J, Ariana Grande & Nicki Minaj

Friday, August 29, 2014

Bang Bang 

Jessie J, Ariana Grande, Nicki Minaj
[Jessie J]
She got a body like an hourglass, but I can give it to you all the time
She got a booty like a Cadillac, but I can send you into overdrive (oh)
(Stop and wait, wait for that, stop, hold up, swing your bat)
See anybody could be bad to you, you need a good girl to blow your mind, yeah

[Jessie J]
Bang bang into the room (I know you want it)
Bang bang all over you (I’ll let you have it)
Wait a minute let me take you there (ah)
Wait a minute tell you (ah)
Bang bang there goes your heart (I know you want it)
Back, back seat of my car (I’ll let you have it)
Wait a minute let me take you there (ah)
Wait a minute tell you (ah)

[Ariana Grande]
She might've let you hold her hand in school, but I'mma show you how to graduate
No, I don't need to hear you talk the talk, just come and show me what your momma gave (Oooh yeah)
(Your love gotta be baby, love but don’t say a thing)
See anybody could be good to you, you need a bad girl to blow your mind

[ Jessie J & Ariana Grande]
Bang bang into the room (I know you want it)
Bang bang all over you (I’ll let you have it)
Wait a minute let me take you there (ah)
Wait a minute tell you (ah)
Bang bang there goes your heart (I know you want it)
Back, back seat of my car (I’ll let you have it)
Wait a minute let me take you there (ah)
Wait a minute tell you (ah)

[Verse 3: Nicki Minaj]
It’s Myx moscato, it’s frizz in a bottle
It’s Nicki full throttle, it’s oh, oh
Swimming in the grotto, we winning in the lotto
We dipping in the pot of blue foam
Kitten so good, it's dripping on wood
Get a ride in the engine that could go
Batman robbin' it, bang bang, cockin' it
Queen Nicki dominant, prominent
It's me, Jessie, and Ari, if they test me, they sorry
Ride us up like a Harley then pull off in this Ferrari
If he hanging we banging, phone ranging, he slanging
It ain't karaoke night but get the mic ‘cause he singing

[Bridge: Jessie J & (Nicki Minaj)]
(B to the A to the N to the G to the uh)
(B to the A to the N to the G to the hey)
See, anybody could be good to you
You need a bad girl to blow your mind

[Hook ]
Bang bang into the room (I know you want it)
Bang bang all over you (I’ll let you have it)
Wait a minute let me take you there (ah)
Wait a minute tell you (ah)
Bang bang there goes your heart (I know you want it)
Back, back seat of my car (I’ll let you have it)
Wait a minute let me take you there (ah)
Wait a minute tell you (ah)

[Outro: Nicki Minaj] (overlapping)
Yeah, I said bang, bang
Bang, bang, bang, bang

This is how We Do Lyrics by Katy Perry

"This Is How We Do"

(This is how we do, This is how we do)
Oh oh
Sipping on Rosé, Silver Lake sun, coming up all lazy
(This is how we do)
Slow cooking pancakes for my boy, still up, still fresh as a Daisy
Playing ping pong all night long, everything's all neon and hazy
(This is how we do)

Chanel this, Chanel that, hell yeah
All my girls vintage Chanel baby

It's no big deal, it's no big deal, it's no big deal
This is no big deal

This is how we do, yeah, chilling, laid back
Straight stuntin' yeah we do it like that
This is how we do, do do do do, this is how we do

This is how we do, yeah, chilling, laid back
Straight stuntin' yeah we do it like that
This is how we do, do do do do, this is how we do

Big hoops, and maroon lips, my clique hoppin' in my Maserati
(This is how we do)
Santa Barbara, chique, at La Super Rica, grabbing tacos, checking out hotties
Now we talking astrology, getting our nails did, all Japanese-y
(This is how we do)
Day drinking at the Wildcats, sucking real bad at Mariah Carey-oke

It's no big deal, it's no big deal, it's no big deal
This is no big deal

This is how we do, yeah, chilling, laid back
Straight stuntin' yeah we do it like that
This is how we do, do do do do, this is how we do

This is how we do, yeah, chilling, laid back
Straight stuntin' yeah we do it like that
This is how we do, do do do do, this is how we do

This one goes out to the ladies at breakfast in last night's dress
(It's how we do, straight stuntin' like that)
Uh-huh, I see you
Yo, this goes out to all you kids that still have their cars at the club valet and it's Tuesday
(This is how we do yeah straight stuntin' like that)
Yo, shout out to all you kids, buying bottle service, with your rent money
Respect

This is how we do, yeah, chilling, laid back
Straight stuntin' yeah we do it like that
This is how we do, do do do do, this is how we do

This is how we do, yeah, chilling, laid back
Straight stuntin' yeah we do it like that
This is how we do, do do do do, this is how we do

This is how we do
This goes out to all you people going to bed with a ten and waking up with a two
This is how we do (straight stuntin like that)
Ha, not me

This is how we do, yeah, chilling, laid back
Straight stuntin' ya we do it like that
This is how we do, do do do do, this is how we do

What? Wait. No, no, no, no.
Bring the beat back.
That's right

(This is how we do), oh oh
(This is how we do), oh oh

This August : The Power Of One (Diversity)

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

I found this just now, when I need to delete some files on my HD external. This one actually one of my assignment in college, forgot what subject it was. I think it was for creative writing, One Diversity was the theme. Yeah my college was crazy about diversity and all that kind of stuff. Students came from all around the world, so basically you can meet people from another side of the world just in one place. Meet then become friends. What a fun memories. 

So yeah, here it is, sort of poem about diversity...


The Power of One

So many thought
Comes from people who always have a dream
Dream will stay in a beautiful place and peaceful
Its called home

When the world was almost split
People on earth lifted their sleeves
No color, no height or weight
Every single feel. One soul. One faith.

The world will always be their home
For those who believe in beautiful peace
As color, rank and degree are the same
Who are left with the sense of honor.

And the world will always be their home
For those who believe when one is beautiful
When color and form is not a barrier
When mutual trust is a real
When ego is no longer objective
When one is a destination.

This July : Top 5 Blog You'd Love

Tuesday, July 22, 2014
Hm, I'm not sure since when I love to read these blog, but they are so inspiring. Most of them write their things in English, but actually there's a lot of local blog that actually good as well. 

Let start with.. 
1. Living Loving | Livingloving.net 


2. Lauren Conrad | Laurenconrad.com 


3. LaurDIY | Desireandinspire.com


4. LOTF | Laughonthefloor.com

5. The Creme de La Crop | Jellyjellybeans.blogspot.com 

Top 5 DIY from LaurenConrad.com

Hello Summer! 

For some countries, they do have summer, including Indonesia (although thanks to global warming all over this earth, seems weather not following the usual tracks). So, i'd like to introduce you to few of my favorite DIY that you could try to fill out some free time. Ah, lucky you to have such a good time, totally envy you btw.

Who's this girl?
Is she famous? 
To answer both question, I'd answer with She's Lauren Conrad. Famous? Hell yeah! Since her tv show, The Hills, couple years back on MTV (I took her side, rather than Heidi. Well, maybe because I watch her and love her positive attitude..). After successful The Hills, she continue her existence with consistent writing book by book. And it was made best sellers. Okay pardon my lack of English, it getting worst day by day.  

So anyway, I love her and love her website as well. For me, she's so creative in so many ways. She does so many things. Writing, be a star of reality show, a designer and a successful entrepreneur. Wow! From so many things that she wrote on her website LaurenConrad.com , she did some simple DIY that you gonna love it as well. As a DIY junkie myself, I'd like to share my favorite post from her website. Hope you enjoy it and try make it one as well.. 

Here we go... 

1. Hocus Pocus : My Tooth Fairy Hallowen Costume 

2. Halloween DIY : Easy Angel Wings

3.  Crafty Creations : Detachable Shoe Bows

4. Halloween DIY : The Carrie Bradshaw Costume (Tutu)

5. Crafty Creations : Revamped Clutch


Sorry for the lack of picture, but you can also open her channel on Youtube to get more clearly instruction of the DIY.. and don't forget to enjoy. I'll post some more DIY from another blogger/vblog artist, so you can have more and more DIY by the end of the summer!

Happy Summer Holiday!


This July Lyrics : Tonight I'm Getting Over You

Thursday, July 17, 2014
"Tonight I'm Getting Over You"

I wanna smash your fears
And get drunken off your tears
Don't you share your smile with anyone else but me
I wanna touch your heart
I wanna crush it in my hands
Make you plead and cry as you give up all the lies

We're not lovers
But more than friends
Put a flame to every single word you ever said
No more crying
To get me through
I'll keep dancing till the morning with somebody new
Tonight I'm getting over you
Tonight I'm getting over you
Tonight I'm getting over you
Tonight I'm getting over you
Over you
Over you

Stuck in a real bad dream
And man, it feels so new to me
Should be in your arms but I'm begging at your feet
It's been a real hard night
And I just hold my pillow tight
You won't love me back, no,
It's not you and I

We're not lovers
But more than friends
Put a flame to every single word you ever said
No more cryin’ (no more cryin’) to get me through (to get me through)
I'll keep dancing till the morning with somebody new
Tonight I'm getting over you
Tonight I'm getting over you
Tonight I'm getting over you
Tonight I'm getting over you
Over you
Over you
Tonight I'm getting over you
Tonight I'm getting over you
Tonight I'm getting over you
Over you
Over you

We're not lovers
But more than friends
Put a flame to every single word you ever said
No more crying
To get me through
I'll keep dancing till the morning with somebody new
Tonight I'm getting over you

This July Lyrics : Birthday by Katy Perry

"Birthday"

I heard you're feeling nothing's going right
Why don't you let me stop by?
The clock is ticking, running out of time
So we should party all night

So cover your eyes,
I have a surprise
I hope you got a healthy appetite
If you wanna dance,
If you want it all
You know that I'm the girl that you should call

Boy, when you're with me
I'll give you a taste
Make it like your birthday everyday
I know you like it sweet
So you can have your cake
Give you something good to celebrate

So make a wish
I'll make it like your birthday everyday
I'll be your gift
Give you something good to celebrate

Pop your confetti
Pop your Pérignon
So hot and heavy
'Til dawn
I got you spinning
Like a disco ball
All night they're playing
Your song

We're living the life
We're doing it right
You're never gonna be unsatisfied
If you wanna dance
If you want it all
You know that I'm the girl that you should call

Boy, when you're with me
I'll give you a taste
Make it like your birthday everyday
I know you like it sweet
So you can have your cake
Give you something good to celebrate

So make a wish
I'll make it like your birthday everyday
I'll be your gift
Give you something good to celebrate

Happy birthday

So let me get you in your birthday suit
It's time to bring out the big balloons
So let me get you in your birthday suit
It's time to bring out the big, big, big, big, big, big balloons

Boy, when you're with me
I'll give you a taste
Make it like your birthday everyday
I know you like it sweet
So you can have your cake
Give you something good to celebrate

Boy, when you're with me
I'll give you a taste
Make it like your birthday everyday
I know you like it sweet
So you can have your cake
Give you something good to celebrate

So make a wish
I'll make it like your birthday everyday
I'll be your gift
Give you something good to celebrate

Happy birthday

This June Lyrics : I Knew You Were Trouble by Taylor Swift

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

I Knew You Were Trouble

[Music video:]*
I think... I think when it's all over,
It just comes back in flashes, you know?
It's like a kaleidoscope of memories.
It just all comes back. But he never does.
I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen.
It's not really anything he said or anything he did,
It was the feeling that came along with it.
And the crazy thing is I don't know if I'm ever gonna feel that way again.
But I don't know if I should.
I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright.
But I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?
Maybe he knew that when he saw me.
I guess I just lost my balance.
I think that the worst part of it all wasn't losing him.
It was losing me.

Once upon a time a few mistakes ago
I was in your sights, you got me alone
You found me, you found me, you found me
I guess you didn't care, and I guess I liked that
And when I fell hard you took a step back
Without me, without me, without me

And he's long gone when he's next to me
And I realize the blame is on me

'Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
'Til you put me down, oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

No apologies. He'll never see you cry,
Pretends he doesn't know that he's the reason why.
You're drowning, you're drowning, you're drowning.
Now I heard you moved on from whispers on the street
A new notch in your belt is all I'll ever be
And now I see, now I see, now I see

He was long gone when he met me
And I realize the joke is on me, yeah!

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
'Til you put me down, oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

And the saddest fear comes creeping in
That you never loved me or her, or anyone, or anything, yeah

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
'Til you put me down, oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in (you were right there, you were right there)
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
Trouble, trouble, trouble
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
Trouble, trouble, trouble

[Music video:]*
I don't know if you know who you are until you lose who you are. 

I Knew You Were Trouble by Taylor Swift

Ps. *This lyrics from her video clip. On original song, it doesn't have music video spoken part. 

This June Lyrics : Someone's Watching Over Me by Hillary Duff

Someone's Watching Over Me

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me


It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart


So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me 
Someone's Watching Over Me by Hillary Duff 
(OST. Raise Your Voice)

Bahasa Asing vs Nasionalisme

Wednesday, June 04, 2014
Kemarin malam, pas saya lagi nyetir perjalanan pulang ke rumah dari kantor (kantor saya gak jauh dari pintu keluar tol tanah kusir) ke rumah (bogor), saya teringat celoteh salah satu teman lama. Dia bertanya : "Kenapa sih lo ngetweet, terus ngobrol mesti pake bahasa inggris terus? Gak cinta sama bahasa sendiri? Gak cinta lo sama negara sendiri?"

Jujur saya sedikit tersentil dengan omongan begitu. Tapi mungkin pemikiran saya yang bertolak belakang dengan dia, bikin saya cuma tersenyum aja. Nasionalisme kok di sama ratakan sama seringnya kita ngobrol atau ngetweet pake bahasa Inggris sih? Shallow banget kalo punya pemikiran seperti itu.

Dulu, salah satu tujuan saya sekolah di luar negeri sebenarnya bukan karena gak cinta indonesia, atau pendidikan di negeri sendiri gak bagus, tapi sepertinya karena ayah saya sengaja bikin anaknya kecemplung ke dunia yg baru. Untuk belajar dan membuka mata. Pernah dengar kata orang tentang arti sebuah perjalanan yang akan membuka mata kita dan mengubah pandangan kita terhadap sesuatu? Nah yang ini saya setuju. 

Orang-orang yang sering berpergian ke luar negeri untuk sekolah, kerja atau liburan, bukan karena di negeri sendiri gak cukup atau nasionalisme mereka rendah, tapi karena mungkin kesempatan di luar lebih baik untuk mereka saat itu. Keluar dari comfort zone itu penting, sama pentingnya seperti mencoba hal-hal baru agar kita lebih terbuka kepada dunia. Yang gak setuju boleh angkat tangan, sekali lagi itu pilihan ya.

Tinggal di negeri orang selama beberapa tahun, kerinduan tentang Indonesia jelas ada. Bagaimanapun, Indonesia kan tempat saya lahir, dibesarkan, gimana gak cinta coba?

Tweetnya mbak @ikanatassa
Lalu saya baca tweet berikut di atas, punya nya mbak Ika Natassa soal gak ada hubungannya antara nasionalisme dengan orang yg sering ngetweet dalam bahasa inggris atau gak. Saya juga sering ngetweet, nulis post dan bahkan sekedar ngobrol atau chat dalam bahasa inggris. Bukan berarti saya gak cinta sama Indonesia lho. Wah cinta banget malah, dimana lagi kita bisa nemu tukang jualan es krim atau siomay mondar-mandir area komplek di sore hari? Atau nemu tukang tambal ban di pinggir jalan? Percaya deh, hal-hal simple begitu belum tentu bisa kamu temuin di luaran sana. Kalaupun someday saya pergi atau bahkan menetap di negara lain, toh pasti bakalan balik ke sini lagi. Lah wong orang tua, sahabat, dan kerabat saya masih di sini.

Dulu, sampai pas SMA saya inget banget nilai bahasa inggris saya bukan termasuk yg bagus, malah saya lebih unggul di pelajaran bahasa Indonesia. Tapi ketika ngerasain belajar di luar dan cuma bahasa inggris dan bahasa tarzan yg bisa di pakai supaya saling mengerti satu sama lain, ya mau gak mau bahasa inggris jadi pilihan nomor satu.

Ketika setelah pulang ke sini, kenapa masih aja sering ngomel-ngomel ato ngomong dalam bahasa inggris (ada lho temen saya yg sempet nanya), aslinya itu karena terbiasa, dan kadang karena gak nemu kata yg pas dalam bahasa indonesia, makanya pakai bahasa inggris. Kadang ada kalimat tertentu yg terdengar lebih nyaman ketika kita lafalkan dalam bahasa lain. Begitu juga sebaliknya, banyak kosakata yang gak mungkin kita translate satu persatu ke dalam bahasa Indonesia.

Lagipula, menguasai banyak bahasa lain bukan berarti rasa nasionalis nya rendah lho. Tiap orang punya takaran masing-masing soal itu. Jadi lebih baik jangan ngejudge sembarangan. Gak baik.

Intinya satu, tetap lah gak ada hubungannya nasionalisme kita sama seberapa sering kita ngomong/ngetweet dalam bahasa Inggris. Lagi pula kemampuan berbahasa asing adalah kebutuhan di jaman sekarang ini. Sekalipun kamu berencana untuk tinggal menetap selamanya dan tak pernah keluar dari tanah air sendiri, suatu saat kamu pasti memerlukannya.

Top 5 bahasa asing yang ingin saya pelajari :
1. French (masih dasar)
2. Korean
3. Spanish
4. Hindi
5. Jepang

See you on the next post!
XO - Fienna Nurhadi

This June Obsession : Tulle-vaganza!

I believe, each and everyone of us has their own obsession. While mine is tulle. Yes that fabric used for making tutu. Well, you can call me drama queen or anything, but I do obsess with gown that made by tulle, lots of them. It looks so girlie (not that I really girlie myself), elegant and princess-looks like. 

Admit it, which girl in this world had never dreaming become a princess for once? I bet everyone had that dream, or even still dreaming. For most of girl, they would have their dream come true when their wedding day comes. But maybe not all of us would have the dream wedding gown exactly the same like what they hoped before. 

As for me, I should waiting longer to have that moment. But I do love browse it sometimes. To imagine what the dress would look like. It give me feel like a princess already. Want to see what I imagine for my wedding day someday? *grinning Maybe these pictures would at least represent what I want.. 

aren't they beautiful? They are deadly amazing!
I collect those picture from Pinterest (yes, my favorite site to browse great picture), and I saved them on my tablet, so whenever I feel down or need inspiration, I could take a look and feel better again. For most of girls, pretty dresses would make our feeling better although we can't afford to buy it. Hehehe.

Not all of them are wedding dress. Like the white and black below, I guess its a prom dress. The girl stand on the stairs wearing a short dress and outer skirt from tulle, that make her looks like wearing a wedding gown. Pretty right? 

Based on that idea, I create the similar thing. I bought some yard of tulle and made an outer skirt. So, all you need to do just match up with your mini skirt/pencil skirt, and tied up on your hips. Simple but pretty. I made few already, and sometimes i wear them when I get party/wedding reception invitation. It's not as big as those wedding skirt, but it still pretty. Maybe someday I would open a boutique only for outer skirt.. Hehehe...

Meanwhile, I have my own project to make black outer skirt gown made by tulle. It's still on progress, maybe 20%, but I can see already how it will turned on. Hopefully i can get it done before end of this week, because I have plan to wear it for fun photoshoot with my friend later. I would show you the progress on the next post.

Gorgeous isn't it?
Or maybe you have your own fabric obsession? Share with me and tell me why! 
See you on next post! 
XO - Fienna Nurhadi

Greetings : Hello June!

Monday, June 02, 2014
Time flies, that what people told me. Yeah its true, since we are no longer in May anymore. June is here, bring sunny day to your window. Most of countries have summer, Indonesia supposed to have summer as well, but global warming sort of change the schedule. Still raining few days a week, so it's a bit wet and stormy around here.

Hello June!
As I expected May gave me ups and down. Some people come and go, but the rest stay the same. My job keeps me busy and I missed those times when I can just wake up late and go hangout somewhere and don't have to think about deadline or should follow up to client. I also missed those moments where I can just go to fabrics store, buy some and come back home. Browse ideas through Pinterest is my favorite activity (for those who don't know about an awesome site called Pinterest, it's your big loss! Okay sorry, i was kidding, but for sure you need to open this website, where you can explore your hobbies and get some new ideas, or feel "why i never think of this before? This idea is simple and awesome, and i really have to try at least one!").

But, there's always a consequence for everything we do or we take in life. We need to start learn how to be responsible, at least for our own life. If this life is forever, I would divide them by some post ; Have fun, Learn by Doing, Get the Result.

I think I'm in stage of learn by doing. Learning is not always about school. It could be about what we need to do for living, and we will earn the result someday. By result doesn't mean always money or power, it could be some priceless experience. I still learn what I'm doing right now, hopefully I can earn great result someday in the future.

My top 5 dreams :
1. Become a business women (home decor & fashion skirt would do)
2. Blogger & writer
3. Conceptor (since I can't do design -my drawing is really bad- but my head full of new ideas)
4. Work for traveling (or having a job that would bring me travel anywhere, that would be fun)
5. Bf from outside the country
So, what do you think of this June? Would it be your June, or anything you want to do this month? Which stage you will placed yourself this month? Whatever it is, I hope it brings best luck for you!

Me and my friend, Rea, in a meeting, selfie after dinner. Btw, you should open this apps. Cool apps!
See you on the next post!

This May Lyrics : Who Says by Selena Gomez

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Who Says

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else, hey

[Verse 1]
You made me insecure,
Told me I wasn’t good enough.
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough?
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself.
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else.

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus:]
Who says, who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurting?
Trust me, that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?

[Verse 2:]
It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus:]
Who says, who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Trust me, that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?

[Bridge:]
Who says you’re not star potential?
Who says you’re not presidential?
Who says you can’t be in movies?
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test?
Who says you can’t be the best?
Who said, who said?
Would you tell me who said that?
Yeah, who said?

[Chorus:]
Who says, who says you're not perfect? (yeah)
Who says you're not worth it? (yeah yeah)
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'? (oh)
Trust me, that's the price of beauty (hey yeah, beauty)
Who says you're not pretty? (who said?)
Who says you're not beautiful? (I'm just beautiful me)
Who says?

Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?

Trust me (yeah), that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty? (who says you're not beautiful?)
Who says? 

Who Says by Selena Gomez 

PS :  One of song that would make you feel much better about yourself. Well at least i do feel that way. And she's gorgeous too in this video clip. Her hair looks natural, her dress adorable. Okay i admit, there were 3 things that i always look up to on video clip, either way the wardrobe, make up (fashion), the plot and the creativity (how they picture the song into a video). So what do you thing for this one? One of your favorite too? 

XO - 

This May : Song List Super Bowl 48 Bruno Mars Performance Halftime Show

Super Bowl 48 Bruno Mars Half Time Show


Song list : 
1. Locked out of heaven (with opening drum solo performance from Bruno Mars) 
2. Treasure - Bruno Mars
3. Runaway baby - Bruno Mars
4. Natalie - Bruno Mars
5. Get it Away - RHCP ft Bruno Mars 
6. Just the Way You Are - Bruno Mars  

PS : Actually, I wasn't big fan of him before. But when I got ticket to watch his concert on my birthday this year (he came to Jakarta on 24 March 2014, when my birthday was on 23 March. Yeah I was lucky bitch), I madly in love. Seriously, he got the look, the charismatic when he sing, great songs, and great performance. And I watch this Superbowl Half Time performance of him maybe more than dozen times already... I wish I have his concert in Jakarta at least recorded, but my phone was dead. But I enjoy his performance. He is Amazing!!

This May Lyrics : Brave by Sara Bareilles

Brave

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up

Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
When they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just want to see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there,
Everybody’s been stared down by the enemy
Fallen for the fear
And done some disappearing,
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, just stop holding your tongue

Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

And since your history of silence
Won’t do you any good,
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
See you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
Brave by Sara Barailles
PS : Yes, this song is different that two other i had mention before. But this song feels like recovery from broken heart. I feel wanna dance and sing along whenever i heard this one. Good one for wake you up in the morning or to listen whenever you feel down because someone bully you. Love it! 
XO -

This May Lyrics : Say Something by A Great Big World ft Christina Aguilera

Say Something

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, If you want me to
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small 
It was over my head
I know nothing at all 

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl 

Say something, I'm giving up on you 
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you 
Anywhere, I would've followed you 
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride 
You're the on that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you 
And anywhere, I would have followed you 
Oh... Oh.. Oh.. Oh say something, I'm giving up on you 

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something... 

Say Something by A Great Big World ft Christina Aguilera

PS : Really love this song. It makes me sad and can bring out some tears (if the time is right). Somehow, i can relate to this song with my personal life recently. Okay i know, not that you or you would even care, but a song can be hit because people usually do relate it with their life. And this song are huge.. Okay, i should stop writing and singing this song all out with my heart, before i cry again... 

XO -

This May Lyrics : Human by Christina Perri

Human

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it
But I'm bleed when i fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything 

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I'm only human 
I'm only human
Just a little human

I can take so much
'Till I've had enough

'Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human 
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human



Human by Christina Perri

Yeah, maybe because my heart goes up and down so much lately, and this song is perfectly fit, so here I am writing it down as one of my favorite Broken Heart Feeling song.. I think I should make sort of compilation of broken heart feeling Songs. Good idea! 

XO -

This May : Limit & Expired!

Sunday, May 25, 2014
Expired.
Out of date.
No longer available.

I hate first word the most. and I'm not the biggest fan of something that has limit on it.
I like watching skies at night, when stars can spread to wherever they want, like when we pouring glitters to the black canvas.
I choose walking near the beach rather than mountain. So I can watch the wave running to each other, like kids try to catch one another.

Expired.
Whenever i heard this word, I feel like in between of something really stupid. My hearts beating faster, when your arms attach to my skin.
Those stupid butterflies, that suppose to be stay in my tummy to tickle me, and remind me how i feel about him, now crawling up to my heart and mind. Try to screw me over.

Somehow, i know this is sound so stupid, but somehow i feel like we are in sort of between expired of something. Although no one warn me before, I knew I'll lose you someday. Lose to someone else.
Whenever it comes to you, i always knew there's something called expired. Never like that word. Never like to have to let you go.

But, what choice do i have? It's not like you can love me back. We both are in the middle of something stupid. It feels like we both are stuck here. Can't go anywhere.

Limit.
Can something about you be just limitless?
This second word i hate the most, but it sure exist in this world. Both of our world.
Okay, it's not like we both are in same world. Well, we are, but sometimes, i feel like i just can't get in to yours, as much as i wanted to be.
You, have your own world. You set your own goal. As far as i can see, I'm not even in it.

Expired!
I wish i don't have to hear that word coming around and remind me that those times may have their own limit, when i'm with you.
Could it be just us, no limit, no expired date?
Could it be just our story, our rule against the world?
Could it be just our words, our line, without something end it?
Could it be just us?

I wish we had more time, to spread our wishes together, like stars spreading on the black and no limit sky.
I wish we had more memories to catch up, before the wave of expired time catch both of us and bring us back to the reality.

To you, to us, to set our own rule, limit, and no expired date.

XO

This May : Scoliosis with Me

Thursday, May 22, 2014
So, today when i was waiting some answer from my client (believe me, its not what i want to tell you, nor you want to hear one), I watched this Indonesian movie called Mika. Played by Vino G Bastian as Mika and Velove Vexia as Indi. From what i read on some review of this movie, it was actually comes from a book with title 'Waktu aku sama Mika' by Indi. Its actually real story of girl name Indi.

I'm not gonna tell you how the story goes on this movie, I watched only 3/4 part of it before my DVD got error anyway. Annoying, I know. But if you wanna know what happen between this 2 characters, Indi & Mika, and how the story ended, you should buy the disc and watch it by yourself. Here's the cover of the movie, so you can get it after you read it (if you are Indonesian, its so much easy to find one).

Like i said before, not the story or the movie what i want to tell you here, now. But the movie itself, remind me of me back then. Not that i had relationship with a guy that had HIV/AIDS (oh no, seriously i never had one) like Indi had Mika in this movie, but I have the same thing like Indi has. Scoliosis.

Yeah, you heard (or read) me. Scoliosis. Oh and puhleaseeee, scoliosis is soo much different with osteophorosis. Please do google, if you wanna know more about this, so next time if you heard someone has Scoliosis on them, don't tell them to drink more milk. Its not related.

Scoliosis is about abnormal curve of spine/backbone. It caused by .... Okay, better you google it again, to find out more. While mine, because of genetic. The doctor said because few generations before me, whoever he/she was had one also. It was one of my aunt who find out that my back looks different. How it was pretty clear to see? I was so slim that time (well, still am now. Prefer terms slim than thin. Sounds better).

My backbone was like letter S (S for scary or super? Hehehe.), when we had X-Ray around year 2001 or 2002. I knew i still have it those X-Ray, just forgot where to put them. One day, after few check up and some second opinion from this doctor and that doctor, my dad asked me (not entirely true, more about brought me a surprise) to got me stayed a while in hospital. Why I said a while? Because it was a month I need to stay in hospital, to prepared me before the surgery.

Yes, they get me my first huge surgery. Not just an ordinary surgery, but it was backbone surgery. They did actually opened up my back, put something on it (long platinum pins on my backbone), and closed it again. and why i said a month in hospital, because i had to did some physiotherapy to prepare my backbone.

Did the surgery hurt me? Not really. But really it was not hurt at all. Yeah, i don't know how much dosage they gave me anesthesia before and after the surgery. What i know was, when i woke up, i really not feeling anything wrong. Just same like before. Sounds really nothing change or to worry about.

But it wasn't finish until then. In fact, it was just a beginning. Believe it or not, i had to struggle some more process before i could got off from hospital. I had to learn how to step on, i had to learn how to walk again. So, yeah, i did some therapy to get my feet on track again.

Like i said, it wasn't an ending, in fact it was just a beginning. Like in Mika's movie, Indi character got somehow lonely, friendless kind of girl, feels and got sort of different from the others, while my story had not much different from that.

I remembered, it was my final year in Junior high school, around 2002-2003. I had to missed school for almost a month (although it feels really like more than just a month) for before-after surgery. When i get back to school, i had to sit on the back, with special seat that my father made for me. What kind of seat if you might ask? Well, it was like normal seat that placed above wooden box. So, the seat somehow higher than any other seat in my class.

And it wasn't the end. I wasn't a popular girl back then. Even my friends weren't noticed at all i was missed school for that long. Okay, maybe just a couple of friend realize it, the rest just doesn't care. I had to skipped all activity that possibly injured my bone. And not to forget that i had to use braces.

If you want to know what is braces, let's take a few look at these picture below :
Braces Spine 1

Corset braces for spine
Okay. Before I wore braces, I had gips (gypsum) around my body. You know that white gypsum, that usually wrapped on your hand or foot if you have injuries? Nah, i had that gypsum from my chest to hips. Feels soo much uncomfortable, if you ask me. I forgot it takes one or two months before i had my light brown corset braces to straight still my body. They even got me a chainsaw machine (small one, don't worry) to cut out the gypsum, because it was pretty thick.

My life was little easier when I had corset braces with me. It was last for few of months of recovery before they took it off. Hm.. Scoliosis with me is so much memories. It reminds me how my parents loves me. They really did their best possible to help me.

Get into surgery actually wasn't the only choice for people like me, with scoliosis. There are lots of cases that choose wear braces for 23 hours a day (like Indi) to get better. I believe that these days are better. The technology helps patients with better and more choices. Also to get into big surgery like this need extra cash and extra efforts. You can check THIS BLOG HERE to get to know how much it cost to get the surgery.

What else should i add on? Okay, maybe next time i could tell you how i feel about this Scoliosis with me, so for the scolioser out there, don't be worry. Your life are not end yet, just because you have Scoliosis. And sorry for the lack of my grammar, yeah i know it's so really bad. Hahaha. But i hope you get what i meant to say.

So, see you next time!

ps : all picture originally from few website. For reference only. 

This May : Top 5 DIY by LaurDIY

Friday, May 09, 2014
In my free time, I love just browsing, looking for new ideas. Pinterest and Youtube are my favorites. But now I want to tell you one of my favorite girl that has done so many creative videos on her own. She even tell the viewers how and why she started her own Youtube channel, LaurDIY.

She loves doing DIY, and almost half of her stuff are made by her. She's so inspiring, don't you think? So, here I am, one of her fan, writing about her 5 DIY that I love the most, and hopefully I can do it anytime soon (between chasing client and try to not screwed up my new job)..  Enjoy!

Anyway, you can find Lauren Youtube channel HERE or you can just directly log on into Youtube website and type LaurDIY.

How to : Costum Laptop, iPhone & Tablet Skins

Wanted something different for your own laptop or phone-case, try this tutorial.

DIY: Brandy Melville Wooden Sign

I found this tutorial so interesting. You could make this for yourself, of give it to someone special, or maybe send as a gift for your people. It would make them happy. What better gift than something personal and you make yourself, right?

Easter/Spring DIY : No Sew Baby Chick Pillow

This is cute, i bet you or even your nephew would love it. Make some for them. They just gonna love it and not putting this down!

Apartement Decor DIY : Glitter Canvas Wall Art

Okay, everybody loves glitter and put them on the wall. Both of this are really pretty if you hang on your room wall, make it not so blank. Or... or you could just give him to someone. It would be a great gift your their house! Your masterpiece on someone else wall, you will feel great!!

DIY Room Decor: Christmas Lights to Bubble Lights

I love lamp, and this one as just as simple as you buy one. But, if you could just make one for your room, you'll more way proud. Go go go make it one!!

After watch those videos, I bet you wanna try one of them as well. So I add on one of her videos from her channel on Youtube, that showing us how her room look alike.. I love her room, it's simple, so organize and pretty too...

Apartment Room Tour | LaurDIY

Great isn't? I just loooveee her room, and i wish i had one as well.

See you on the next post!

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