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This May Lyrics : Who Says by Selena Gomez

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Who Says

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else, hey

[Verse 1]
You made me insecure,
Told me I wasn’t good enough.
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough?
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself.
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else.

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus:]
Who says, who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurting?
Trust me, that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?

[Verse 2:]
It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus:]
Who says, who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Trust me, that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?

[Bridge:]
Who says you’re not star potential?
Who says you’re not presidential?
Who says you can’t be in movies?
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test?
Who says you can’t be the best?
Who said, who said?
Would you tell me who said that?
Yeah, who said?

[Chorus:]
Who says, who says you're not perfect? (yeah)
Who says you're not worth it? (yeah yeah)
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'? (oh)
Trust me, that's the price of beauty (hey yeah, beauty)
Who says you're not pretty? (who said?)
Who says you're not beautiful? (I'm just beautiful me)
Who says?

Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?

Trust me (yeah), that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty? (who says you're not beautiful?)
Who says? 

Who Says by Selena Gomez 

PS :  One of song that would make you feel much better about yourself. Well at least i do feel that way. And she's gorgeous too in this video clip. Her hair looks natural, her dress adorable. Okay i admit, there were 3 things that i always look up to on video clip, either way the wardrobe, make up (fashion), the plot and the creativity (how they picture the song into a video). So what do you thing for this one? One of your favorite too? 

XO - 

This May : Song List Super Bowl 48 Bruno Mars Performance Halftime Show

Super Bowl 48 Bruno Mars Half Time Show


Song list : 
1. Locked out of heaven (with opening drum solo performance from Bruno Mars) 
2. Treasure - Bruno Mars
3. Runaway baby - Bruno Mars
4. Natalie - Bruno Mars
5. Get it Away - RHCP ft Bruno Mars 
6. Just the Way You Are - Bruno Mars  

PS : Actually, I wasn't big fan of him before. But when I got ticket to watch his concert on my birthday this year (he came to Jakarta on 24 March 2014, when my birthday was on 23 March. Yeah I was lucky bitch), I madly in love. Seriously, he got the look, the charismatic when he sing, great songs, and great performance. And I watch this Superbowl Half Time performance of him maybe more than dozen times already... I wish I have his concert in Jakarta at least recorded, but my phone was dead. But I enjoy his performance. He is Amazing!!

This May Lyrics : Brave by Sara Bareilles

Brave

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up

Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
When they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just want to see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there,
Everybody’s been stared down by the enemy
Fallen for the fear
And done some disappearing,
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, just stop holding your tongue

Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

And since your history of silence
Won’t do you any good,
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
See you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
Brave by Sara Barailles
PS : Yes, this song is different that two other i had mention before. But this song feels like recovery from broken heart. I feel wanna dance and sing along whenever i heard this one. Good one for wake you up in the morning or to listen whenever you feel down because someone bully you. Love it! 
XO -

This May Lyrics : Say Something by A Great Big World ft Christina Aguilera

Say Something

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, If you want me to
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small 
It was over my head
I know nothing at all 

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl 

Say something, I'm giving up on you 
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you 
Anywhere, I would've followed you 
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride 
You're the on that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you 
And anywhere, I would have followed you 
Oh... Oh.. Oh.. Oh say something, I'm giving up on you 

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something... 

Say Something by A Great Big World ft Christina Aguilera

PS : Really love this song. It makes me sad and can bring out some tears (if the time is right). Somehow, i can relate to this song with my personal life recently. Okay i know, not that you or you would even care, but a song can be hit because people usually do relate it with their life. And this song are huge.. Okay, i should stop writing and singing this song all out with my heart, before i cry again... 

XO -

This May Lyrics : Human by Christina Perri

Human

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it
But I'm bleed when i fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything 

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I'm only human 
I'm only human
Just a little human

I can take so much
'Till I've had enough

'Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human 
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human



Human by Christina Perri

Yeah, maybe because my heart goes up and down so much lately, and this song is perfectly fit, so here I am writing it down as one of my favorite Broken Heart Feeling song.. I think I should make sort of compilation of broken heart feeling Songs. Good idea! 

XO -

This May : Limit & Expired!

Sunday, May 25, 2014
Expired.
Out of date.
No longer available.

I hate first word the most. and I'm not the biggest fan of something that has limit on it.
I like watching skies at night, when stars can spread to wherever they want, like when we pouring glitters to the black canvas.
I choose walking near the beach rather than mountain. So I can watch the wave running to each other, like kids try to catch one another.

Expired.
Whenever i heard this word, I feel like in between of something really stupid. My hearts beating faster, when your arms attach to my skin.
Those stupid butterflies, that suppose to be stay in my tummy to tickle me, and remind me how i feel about him, now crawling up to my heart and mind. Try to screw me over.

Somehow, i know this is sound so stupid, but somehow i feel like we are in sort of between expired of something. Although no one warn me before, I knew I'll lose you someday. Lose to someone else.
Whenever it comes to you, i always knew there's something called expired. Never like that word. Never like to have to let you go.

But, what choice do i have? It's not like you can love me back. We both are in the middle of something stupid. It feels like we both are stuck here. Can't go anywhere.

Limit.
Can something about you be just limitless?
This second word i hate the most, but it sure exist in this world. Both of our world.
Okay, it's not like we both are in same world. Well, we are, but sometimes, i feel like i just can't get in to yours, as much as i wanted to be.
You, have your own world. You set your own goal. As far as i can see, I'm not even in it.

Expired!
I wish i don't have to hear that word coming around and remind me that those times may have their own limit, when i'm with you.
Could it be just us, no limit, no expired date?
Could it be just our story, our rule against the world?
Could it be just our words, our line, without something end it?
Could it be just us?

I wish we had more time, to spread our wishes together, like stars spreading on the black and no limit sky.
I wish we had more memories to catch up, before the wave of expired time catch both of us and bring us back to the reality.

To you, to us, to set our own rule, limit, and no expired date.

XO

This May : Scoliosis with Me

Thursday, May 22, 2014
So, today when i was waiting some answer from my client (believe me, its not what i want to tell you, nor you want to hear one), I watched this Indonesian movie called Mika. Played by Vino G Bastian as Mika and Velove Vexia as Indi. From what i read on some review of this movie, it was actually comes from a book with title 'Waktu aku sama Mika' by Indi. Its actually real story of girl name Indi.

I'm not gonna tell you how the story goes on this movie, I watched only 3/4 part of it before my DVD got error anyway. Annoying, I know. But if you wanna know what happen between this 2 characters, Indi & Mika, and how the story ended, you should buy the disc and watch it by yourself. Here's the cover of the movie, so you can get it after you read it (if you are Indonesian, its so much easy to find one).

Like i said before, not the story or the movie what i want to tell you here, now. But the movie itself, remind me of me back then. Not that i had relationship with a guy that had HIV/AIDS (oh no, seriously i never had one) like Indi had Mika in this movie, but I have the same thing like Indi has. Scoliosis.

Yeah, you heard (or read) me. Scoliosis. Oh and puhleaseeee, scoliosis is soo much different with osteophorosis. Please do google, if you wanna know more about this, so next time if you heard someone has Scoliosis on them, don't tell them to drink more milk. Its not related.

Scoliosis is about abnormal curve of spine/backbone. It caused by .... Okay, better you google it again, to find out more. While mine, because of genetic. The doctor said because few generations before me, whoever he/she was had one also. It was one of my aunt who find out that my back looks different. How it was pretty clear to see? I was so slim that time (well, still am now. Prefer terms slim than thin. Sounds better).

My backbone was like letter S (S for scary or super? Hehehe.), when we had X-Ray around year 2001 or 2002. I knew i still have it those X-Ray, just forgot where to put them. One day, after few check up and some second opinion from this doctor and that doctor, my dad asked me (not entirely true, more about brought me a surprise) to got me stayed a while in hospital. Why I said a while? Because it was a month I need to stay in hospital, to prepared me before the surgery.

Yes, they get me my first huge surgery. Not just an ordinary surgery, but it was backbone surgery. They did actually opened up my back, put something on it (long platinum pins on my backbone), and closed it again. and why i said a month in hospital, because i had to did some physiotherapy to prepare my backbone.

Did the surgery hurt me? Not really. But really it was not hurt at all. Yeah, i don't know how much dosage they gave me anesthesia before and after the surgery. What i know was, when i woke up, i really not feeling anything wrong. Just same like before. Sounds really nothing change or to worry about.

But it wasn't finish until then. In fact, it was just a beginning. Believe it or not, i had to struggle some more process before i could got off from hospital. I had to learn how to step on, i had to learn how to walk again. So, yeah, i did some therapy to get my feet on track again.

Like i said, it wasn't an ending, in fact it was just a beginning. Like in Mika's movie, Indi character got somehow lonely, friendless kind of girl, feels and got sort of different from the others, while my story had not much different from that.

I remembered, it was my final year in Junior high school, around 2002-2003. I had to missed school for almost a month (although it feels really like more than just a month) for before-after surgery. When i get back to school, i had to sit on the back, with special seat that my father made for me. What kind of seat if you might ask? Well, it was like normal seat that placed above wooden box. So, the seat somehow higher than any other seat in my class.

And it wasn't the end. I wasn't a popular girl back then. Even my friends weren't noticed at all i was missed school for that long. Okay, maybe just a couple of friend realize it, the rest just doesn't care. I had to skipped all activity that possibly injured my bone. And not to forget that i had to use braces.

If you want to know what is braces, let's take a few look at these picture below :
Braces Spine 1

Corset braces for spine
Okay. Before I wore braces, I had gips (gypsum) around my body. You know that white gypsum, that usually wrapped on your hand or foot if you have injuries? Nah, i had that gypsum from my chest to hips. Feels soo much uncomfortable, if you ask me. I forgot it takes one or two months before i had my light brown corset braces to straight still my body. They even got me a chainsaw machine (small one, don't worry) to cut out the gypsum, because it was pretty thick.

My life was little easier when I had corset braces with me. It was last for few of months of recovery before they took it off. Hm.. Scoliosis with me is so much memories. It reminds me how my parents loves me. They really did their best possible to help me.

Get into surgery actually wasn't the only choice for people like me, with scoliosis. There are lots of cases that choose wear braces for 23 hours a day (like Indi) to get better. I believe that these days are better. The technology helps patients with better and more choices. Also to get into big surgery like this need extra cash and extra efforts. You can check THIS BLOG HERE to get to know how much it cost to get the surgery.

What else should i add on? Okay, maybe next time i could tell you how i feel about this Scoliosis with me, so for the scolioser out there, don't be worry. Your life are not end yet, just because you have Scoliosis. And sorry for the lack of my grammar, yeah i know it's so really bad. Hahaha. But i hope you get what i meant to say.

So, see you next time!

ps : all picture originally from few website. For reference only. 

This May : Top 5 DIY by LaurDIY

Friday, May 09, 2014
In my free time, I love just browsing, looking for new ideas. Pinterest and Youtube are my favorites. But now I want to tell you one of my favorite girl that has done so many creative videos on her own. She even tell the viewers how and why she started her own Youtube channel, LaurDIY.

She loves doing DIY, and almost half of her stuff are made by her. She's so inspiring, don't you think? So, here I am, one of her fan, writing about her 5 DIY that I love the most, and hopefully I can do it anytime soon (between chasing client and try to not screwed up my new job)..  Enjoy!

Anyway, you can find Lauren Youtube channel HERE or you can just directly log on into Youtube website and type LaurDIY.

How to : Costum Laptop, iPhone & Tablet Skins

Wanted something different for your own laptop or phone-case, try this tutorial.

DIY: Brandy Melville Wooden Sign

I found this tutorial so interesting. You could make this for yourself, of give it to someone special, or maybe send as a gift for your people. It would make them happy. What better gift than something personal and you make yourself, right?

Easter/Spring DIY : No Sew Baby Chick Pillow

This is cute, i bet you or even your nephew would love it. Make some for them. They just gonna love it and not putting this down!

Apartement Decor DIY : Glitter Canvas Wall Art

Okay, everybody loves glitter and put them on the wall. Both of this are really pretty if you hang on your room wall, make it not so blank. Or... or you could just give him to someone. It would be a great gift your their house! Your masterpiece on someone else wall, you will feel great!!

DIY Room Decor: Christmas Lights to Bubble Lights

I love lamp, and this one as just as simple as you buy one. But, if you could just make one for your room, you'll more way proud. Go go go make it one!!

After watch those videos, I bet you wanna try one of them as well. So I add on one of her videos from her channel on Youtube, that showing us how her room look alike.. I love her room, it's simple, so organize and pretty too...

Apartment Room Tour | LaurDIY

Great isn't? I just loooveee her room, and i wish i had one as well.

See you on the next post!

Greetings : Welcome May!

Wednesday, May 07, 2014
For me, May come with full of surprises. New job, new life, and it all packed as one new adventure. And finally after long time I wish I have my own name for my blog, the wish has come true. I smiled a lot, when i type my own name to open this blog, and it works perfectly. For those who still type my old blog address : ceritasiperihutan.blogspot.com it will redirect to www.fiennanurhadi.com. I guess I should celebrate it tonight. Haha I was joking. Hm.. not really, I really do feel want to do small celebration. Okay, let see. 

Not only that, this morning I received my official name card for office matters. It feels different. Well, I used to had my own name card (it was my I still doing EnLou), but this time is really different. My new official job. Okay, sounds cool, don't you think? Hehehe. 

This made everything seems official *wink*
Anything else, I've got a feeling that May gonna be a busy month. As for me, I've start my new job, could take more than a couple weeks to get used to with the works and everything going on around this business. But I'll take it as a challenge to be better person. Sounds cliche for a first jobber, don't you think? So, just let see how it goes and how I try to get along with all this things. Besides, I still looking for new place to stay. Not that I mind to always drive home office everyday, I loveee driving so much, but still, maybe it will be great if i have place to stay near office. 

One more thing, I would congrats my friend, Tijah, who will getting married on 6th of June this year. I'd love to come, if I could. The wedding it self will held in Malaysia, on Friday. Well, let see. I'm not sure i can just bail on my work and go there. But if I couldn't go, i would to congratulate you here dear. I'm so happy for you. 

See you guys on next post...
XO 
"In the end, you just gotta pick your happiness - AR"

Life is simply blessing

Monday, May 05, 2014
Life is simply blessing

"I remember, it was around beginning of this year, me and my best friends meet up. Just like everyone else does, we talked about new years resolution. Don't ask me, mostly I forgot what I planned about my new year's resolution after few weeks, then make another one. Meh..

But it was one of my best girl said that she will get new job, hopefully new love life and of course new start. Simple yet fascinating. She said she wont looking back, because she isn't living in past life, but she lived in her present and for future life.

It wasn't lot of to ask, she asked to God just enough. Not too much, but not lesser as well. Like i said, just enough.

As for my self, I am not big fan of new years resolution. It wasn't useless to make one, but i always think that those resolution just keep us on fire at the beginning only. Like the first couple months of the year, the rest you know it better. Maybe some of us did the same way like I did. But to replace that, i better off with let it flow way. Means, I wont hoping so much doing this and that for new years resolution, but instead of it, i would just think and do it right away. For me too much planning equal with failure. Maybe I'm type of person who loves something spontaneous, less planning, more doing it.

Back to my friends new years resolution. Another friend of mine, I'm not quite sure what he want. But I know he dreaming about getting married soon, with someone that he still looking for. Okay, it sounds weird, but seems he's not ready to let go his recent love life. Not ready yet to move on. Let it be. I'm tired to always encourage him to just let it go, find someone new.

Now, few months has passed. Both me and my friend has finally get what we wished before. New job (for both of us) and new love life (I'm so happy for her). Maybe i should wait longer for love life section, and do more in the section of loving myself, before I can love someone else again. Okay i know what you all thinking, sounds lame, but hey that's what i told to my self. "Not this time Fienna, not now. Be patient."

I think that, life is simply a blessing, for those people who actually believe that life is such a perfect opportunity to grow and to be happy. It's really depend on how you do it, how you live it, how you look at it, and how you are gonna be grateful about it. For this year, i don't ask too much, but i ask just enough for me to feel blessed.

Like everyone else does, life brings up and down. But life, is simply a bless.
XO,
Fienna Nurhadi

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