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Weekly Notes #4

Tuesday, October 27, 2015
This post coming out late, I know. Actually, I don't know what to write, until few days ago, when I met up with one old friend at coffee shop in my area. He was my favorite person, 2 years ago. Yes, the one I lost my happiness and made me broken heart and hardly moved on, the one that I bring up on the previous Weekly Notes (Read the last Weekly Notes #3 here).

It wasn't the first time we met again after long lost contact. But it actually was our first time talk about how we met, how we watched movie together and running in the rain because we parked my car far away from the mall. It was funny, but thanks to my worst saving memories in my brain, I almost forget about that. Need couple minutes to remember all those things again, and laughed. I saw him smiling and blushing. Geez, then suddenly I realize what makes me fall for this guy in the first place. The way he smiled. The harmless and innocent smile.

It's funny thing about memories, once we open one, we just couldn't stop. We keep opening one box to another one. "Remember when..." is become our favorite line to start new conversation. Memories, actually not about the person. He had silly and stupid reason (but true, one reason you won't hear when you dated someone) when break up. It was awful and bad one experienced. When it done, we always had those good memories left in one part of our life.

Sure you can delete his number, photos that capture how happy when you were together (but kinda hurt to see now), his number, his sweet texts before when you two broke up. But somehow, the good memories will remain the same. It just there. Waiting for you to open the dusty box again when you are ready.  Memories are really sweet things. Like candy, can't stop eating them when you started.

After that meeting, the next night, I met another friend. This one is my best buddy, we met every week for coffee session (I called it our coffee-lity time), when we could spill our life problem and update things between life routine. I don't know when it all started, but we have been like this for quite sometimes.

That night, after dinner outside, we came back to his place. It was started from one topic then he started reminiscing what was happened back then about his last relationship. I know few story he told me about how and why they two broke up, but not the exact thing (this is normal, since he is a guy. They just don't spill it out easily about their own problem).

He telling me things about his relationship, how he started it, how he started dating that girl, how he loved all the process until how he finally lost her and have to let go all things. Until he said, "I still can't forget how beautiful she was when I woke her up in the morning, the way she loved me, how much she can loved me, how much she insecure about our friendship, the way I try to win her heart. Everything. Just can't forget it." It was his last relationship ended around 4 years ago and still no one can beat her place in his heart. I see him live in the present but still wish he wasn't that dumb 4 years ago.

In the end, I think that what memories does to us. Gave us something to remember, something to laugh or cry one day, to learn from mistake, to be better in present day, to feel that we had good times or bad experience once and get better for next time. It's always fun to start our conversation with "Remember when we were..." and smiled because it happens. When things are done, and nothing in any power we can get it back, just smiled not cry, because it happens.

"Sometimes the smallest of things, triggers memories so stranger and so beautiful that leave us speechless. Memories are a funny thing. The small pieces of our past. They are always safe in our memories. Memories are like chocolate boxes, once open you can't stop at just one." 
- Naina Talwar from Yeh Jawaani Hai Dewaani (2013)

One more week to the trip!! Next week I'll visit Japan with my mom and my sister (bounding time) for a week. Hope I can share my experience from there. I am super excited for this trip, but haven't decided what I want to bring it there, yet. One part of traveling I hate the most is actually packing, but wish me luck for this trip! 

P.S : Today, 27th October is actually World Kiss Day. So have you kiss your loves one today? 

Good afternoon & good luck! 

Make A Date With Your Laptop! Here The Best Tv Shows For This Fall!

Friday, October 23, 2015

You don't have anyone to go with in this weekend, or you just decided that you want to spend all weekend stay at home? Well, at least take your laptop and bury yourself with these awesome list of tv show (I hope one of them, or all of them are your favorite too) !!. Because today I have these 6 my favorite tv show that I want to share it to you guys (psst, there will be some spoiler if you haven't watched them yet). Without further a due, let's begin!! 

Grey's Anatomy Season 12 
This month, the season 12 of Grey's Anatomy are finally back with new story of Meredith Grey and the hospital. After Derek Shepherd died in previous season, now Meredith facing new reality living as widow, and two sisters under one roof. She live with another Shepherd, Amelia (Derek's sister) and Maggie, Meredith step sister in her former house. Dr Bailey become Chief of Surgery. Alex & Jo move to a loft together. April finally comeback from Jordan and willing to reworked her marriage with Jackson. There are new interns that makes everything interesting. So, who's ready for new season of Grey's Anatomy? Well, at least I am! 

Once Upon A Time Season 5 
Remember what the previous season finished the line? The energy of Dark One suck into Emma Swan body and makes her disappeared? The new season finally back with set of Camelot Kingdom and the story of Emma Swan become the new Dark One. I don't know you still prefer Mr Gold as The Dark One, or you like to see Emma being dark and evil one? If you miss how fishy and evil Rumpelstiltskin, you'll see him a lot in this season. Until today, they already airing episode 4 of this new season. Careful, you might love Emma Swan as the new Dark One like I do now..

The Vampire Diaries Season 7 
Curious with what happen to Mystic Falls when Elena put down in a long comma and Damon Salvatore can't do anything about it? Or do you want to know what happen between Caroline and Stefan Salvatore now? You might have been waiting this new season of The Vampire Diaries. You don't need to wait any longer, they are here to continue the story of Mystic Falls! Yeay for that!

Finally, Emily Salvatore regain her long family to live again (vampire never really died until the heart pull out from the body or they will died for a while if they have dagger in their heart, you know it right the rule?) and come back to Mystic Falls. This family is quite strong, because not only they are vampire, but also witches. Scary combination. You should watch, how the whole town should move out because the invasion of Emily family might be dangerous for the people, and how Stefan Salvatore and the gang willing to live side by side with their own crazy mother. Gonna be interesting and full blood bath season, without Nina Dobrev in it (she left on the previous season and put Elena down in a long comma for a while, until Bonnie die).

Limitless Season 1
You probably had watched the movie version of this series, played by handsome Bradley Copper as Eddie Morra. Nah, this series version will played by Jake McDorman (yes, this guy play in Manhattan Love Story, but the show got cancelled). The story still the same, about a guy named Brian Finch with his messy but stuck life. His life changed when he introduced to drugs called NZT-48 by his long life friend. But thanks to the drugs, his life never be the same again. Suddenly he become one of the smartest person in the world (for at least 12 hours before he took the next dose) and also work for FBI.

The development of the story is pretty good. Telling us about FBI cases and how with the help of NZT, Brian help to solve it. I don't know if its coincidence or what, but you'll see the girl from Brian past (he said this girl the one that got away) Shauna, is actually the same girl from Manhattan Love Story, played by Analeigh Tipton. Weird, huh? That one just little bit spoiler. I won't tell anymore, because you have to watch it first and tell me what do you think of this series. Now they airing episode 5. Tell me, which one better, the movie or the series?

Switched At Birth Season 4 
This series isn't new for this month, but they still aired on ABC Family and still telling story about Bay & Daphne and the family. As for Bay, after broken heart thanks to his long time boyfriend (no they are just an ex lover or friends), Bay continue her life without Emmet. The show gave her new love interest called Garret. You would know him from ANTM model cycle 22. Deaf model but so gorgeous hot, you'd love him. As for Daphne, her relationship begin to develop with Mingo. For Emmet, he continue doing his college life in LA, so you won't see him so often in this show. But if you curios what might happen next, you should just watched them, rather than I told you all the spoiler right?

By the way, I heard they are discussing about this show for season 5 already! Yeay!!

Young & Hungry Season 2 
If you read until this part, please say Yeay on the comment box below. Because this month we will say good bye to this season of the show, as they are reached their season 2 finale. I don't know when they will continue for the season 3. But for sure this show has been renewed for another season. Confirmed! For me, this show is originally-awesome! I love Gabi and Josh, and wondering why they haven't get together yet and Josh let Gabi went away, again. Ups, sorry for another spoiler. But for sure  you need to check it out what's happening on the show, and to get the answer about my spoiler.

But the good news is, they will have one special Christmas episode aired on November 24th at 9 pm (America time) as part of "Countdown to 25 days Christmas" event. So just can't wait!

So, what is your favorite tv show, or you want to recommend your favorite tv show, please list down on the comment box, I'll try to watch them! Happy watching and happy weekend, people!

XO, Fienna N 

Weekly Notes #3

Monday, October 19, 2015
Dear You,

I apologize for not writing the weekly notes #2 and just jump to the number 3, I was sick last week. I know it wasn't the real reason, but it was one of the main reason why I haven't write any post for the last couple weeks. I tied up with something, other than work. Can't really tell, because I don't know what to tell anyway.

So, little bit scoop of my update. Tonight I went out with someone I used to know back then. It was nice evening, went out for movie and we talked. Nothing serious, nothing personal either. It was just small talk. But, then I saw one post from Instagram. A quote.
It says "Don't look for happiness in the same place you lost it." It hit me, just like that. Brief story, I was lost my happiness to this person 2 years ago for some stupid reason he said to me. For all the reason of losing happiness, this one was the cruel, dumb and stupid but also the truth one, the one kind that you just can't deal with it.

Tonight, it wasn't about me look for the same happiness from the same person again. No, not about that. It's about me looking for my new happiness, a peace with my past life. For the reason I can't explain, sometimes it's just hard to let go. When its happening, we tend to hate the person that hurt us, that makes our heart ached so bad, then finally we can let go the past.

I used to feel that way. I used to hate him because what he did to me 2 years ago. But then what? I keep hating him, makes me hate the part of my self too, it's round circle that will never end. Then I got a stupid idea to become just a good friend again with this person. Sometimes it doesn't work, because I still want him to feel as much pain as possible, the way I felt back then. Oh man, I could write all the pain like for couple page long. But then I know I got nothing.

Hatred is one silly feeling. One thing for sure, he got his own karma and God made him pay it. Its already win-win solution. And I feel nothing. Okay, I was smiling and grinning when I heard about it, he deserved it. But do you know what I really want from him? One sincere apologize from his deep heart. That's it.

Life taught me a lesson. It doesn't have to be us that give them some sweet revenge. It doesn't have to be us who give them lessons. What we can do now (after being hurt of some jerk-badass) just let it go whatever hold us. When the time is right, they will come around and feel guilty about what they did to us before. We just need to be good and welcome them. Welcome them, doesn't mean you forget what had happened before (this for avoiding being dumb for the second time).

I know bad memories wont go that easily, but doesn't mean you can't make peace with them. Sure it needed time to heal everything, but sure too you can do it.  Let go your past, don't think much about it, and let God do his job to help and protect you, so you can get back there and have your own beautiful life.

Good night & good luck little fellas! 

Weekly Notes #1

Monday, October 05, 2015
Dear You,

Like I told you before on the previous post, I'd start something new here. Writing a weekly notes, little scoop summary of my life in the past week. Not sure how I can pull this off in the middle of everything, but I'm gonna try it anyway.

Since elementary school, I never be the popular kind of girl. I don't make a lot of friend. I remember I only have few close friends, the kind of friends that really close although really far miles away, but still be there when I need them. At least I have 1 or two really close friend from each stage of my life, and still feel blessed. I do socialize in the small and the same circle. It's easy to get to know me better, but to make someone our good friends, it does takes time. Although, I wasn't in purpose being selected for a new friends, I'd love to hangout with anyone. But I guess time does all the works. Sooner or later, we would know, which one truly good, and which one is not worth fighting for.

In relationship, I always be typically of one timer girl. When I'm into someone, mostly I'd fall hard. My heart is just really weak piece of meat. I fall easily, but let go hardly. I find it easier for me to move on when the guy push me away, wait till one click (turning point), then I'd get over it. 2 years ago, I had my last break up. One thing I regret the most was, I didn't fight better. Just give up like that. That's what I want to do for the next relationship, fight more for the one I love. So at least, when everything need to be done, I wont have any regret left.

As an Aries, it's easy to give up things we started with fire spirit. Well, Idk if its an Aries thingy or it just me, but maybe I need to change that. Start to fight and remember why I started it in the first place. There's always be a reason to stand up to what we believe. Whatever it is. That positive energy, is the one I need now. The positive energy to do not give up easily and give more effort. Because they say, if it's worth it, then why not fight for it?

Good night & good luck!

Greetings : Black & White in this October

Sunday, October 04, 2015
Hello there again!

October is finally here. What you guys up to in this October? For me actually not much, as much as I can recall. Although I have few things to do for my job, getting all things done beautifully before my big break next month. Yes, if everything goes smooth, I will have short overseas trip with my Mom and my sister. But I will tell you the detail next month. I am pretty excited for this trip, finally can have time off from reality.

By the way, do you like my new head banner? It's new and I love it. Since I am trying to runaway from something personal, so I need to disciplined my self for more post, and the good one posts. I wanna try daily post, not a journal type of post thou, but something that close with our daily routine. Hope I can pull this things of. If I can't make it, then I am apologize in advance. With my work and all the personal things going on, trying get everything done is quite a challenging thing to do. But I'm on it, trying my best.

So, how was your weekend going on? Mine, was pretty good. I had lunch slash early early dinner with my family to celebrate my brother birthday today. It's just a normal eating out day in a sushi restaurant. What would I say, we are the kind of family who loves sushi damn much, so almost every member of family birthday we always had dinner at sushi restaurant. But seriously, I am really in a huge trouble eating with chopstick. Just can't do it right. Please, if you read this and want to teach me how to use it properly, I'll be really blessed and thankful.

One more thing, I think I will have a weekly notes every week, like on Saturday or Sunday. Not sure for what, but I feel like I need to write down a little scoop of my life. Nothing in detail, because it's not a journal or anything, just to write down summary of my week going on. I hope I can make it too.

Hey, it's October. Are you ready for Halloween party in end of this month? Have you prepared any costume, or you actually making it now? Who you want to be this year? Whoever it is, good luck! Tell me your costume inspiration on the comment box down below, I'd love to read all of it!

XO Fienna N


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